I am a porn addict. I blog.

Welcome to my blog. I am a porn addict. For the sake of my privacy and my family's privacy, I will refer to myself as Jim on this blog. Everything else written here will be the truth of my life, and my addiction. My goal for this blog is to be a tool for everyone including me. I want men and women who are addicted to pornography and sex to read this blog and know that they are not alone, and to find it as a resource for their recovery. I also want this to be a tool for the significant others of those addicts, for them to see some insight into their partner's lives and thoughts. Eventhough this is a blog, I encourage people to interact with it. Please leave comments (tasteful and constructive ones) and don't be afraid to email me. I would love to talk with people out there that have been affected by this horrible addiction. My email is iamaddicted2porn@gmail.com

A little more about me:
I'm a 23 year old, happily married man. I'm a Christian. I enjoy music, TV, playing cards with my friends, spending time with my wonderful wife. From all outward appearances I live a completely normal life. Down deeper, however, lies a dark and horrible addiction. Pornography has been the plague of my life for years. It has caused great pain, hurt, and fear for me and now my wife. I've lost a job because of it. I've gotten in financial trouble from it. It has created an awkwardness between my parents and me.(they know about my problems) I've hurt my wife. I've lost some ability to feel emotions. It's caused me to be selfish and distant from my family and friends. I've fallen away from God. These things that I have thrown out only begin to describe the past 12 years of my life. 12 years! I was only 11 when I first began seeking out those images and masturbating. If only I had known then what I know now.

Because of the nature and complication of this addiction and the way it affects live and relationships, there is too much to cover in one posting. I plan to cover in more detail my past and my relationships, as well as write about new situations and breakthroughs as they occur.

One last thing for this initial blog post. WRAP(White Ribbon Against Pornography) week is coming up on Sunday, October 29 through November 5. If you're the activist type get out there and make a difference. If you're not, keep a white ribbon in your pocket as a reminder to yourself to further your recovery, or to pray for your partner, or to pray for somebody in the porn/sex industry. Visit www.wrapfamily.com